people have their own level of patience...mebbe I've reached mine a long time ago...but since I've kept silent all these while, it shows that I still have the patience in me...hrmm...I shall just smile while I can(:Sometimes I just can't stand all the feeling I have sucked in me but I just got to keep going coz of the people around me...Yar yar, it's my life and I can't just keep it in coz its gonna eat me alive...but sucking it in makes people happy...making people happy makes me happy...i guess................Hypocrisy is killing me...but ouh wells...isn't it part of life?gotta live with it but I'll just minus it out of my activities...smile Su smile(: (: (:I've been bored these few days...
stuck at home watching recorded tapes of old P. Ramlee and Hindustan movies...so you get the gist of my life....its a capital BORING for me...Ouh wells...what to do...I'm still waiting for the job offer to come my way and till then i shall continue rotting...n ouh recuperate for next Sunday for TSC finals...if our SPSC pesilat continues to the finals, InsyaAllah(:so about TSC,SPSC still has a couple of pesilats left...GOGOGO SP!Though some lost their fights, they put up a great one...one match that I can't forget will be Afiq n Zulhan's match...Afiq, SPSC's beloved Matrep lost but GOSH!!!I've never seen his face like that...muker Matrep Fighter btol!I LOIKEEEE!n as for Zulhan's match,he put up a great fight, never losing his temper with his opponent.n Adilla dear,if I were you,I'd act the same way as you...heh...I totally get what you feel babe..mebbe I wud haf jumped into the gelanggang or walked away and beat myself up but we both noe its not necessary...haha...Su memang melampau org dier so don't haf to worry about me...Babe, he's okae so don't have to worry about him yar(:n psstpsst, this is why i don't let *him<3> join silat...heh
I wud'nt turn down a fighter for a boyfie but my boyfie to turn a fighter is a bit too much to handle...
haha!
I've always been protective of the people around me...
and I can get rather physical too but I've toned down since I'm a girl u noe.
pfft!
girl or what??!
so back to the story, I'll always and have always stepped in to put myself in front of the people..
u noe, like get them out of harm's way but oh wells...I'm not so much of a hero if I'm afraid of gore and all that right???
mebbe coz I'm the eldest in the family...
sooooooo..it doesn't matter much does it?
having a bodyguard wudn't make things anymore different would it?
My ego, the size of an average male, wudn't want to let go of the independence...
Though i wud looooooooove for sumone to step in front of a full speed train for me, I wud end up pushing the person away instead(:
haha
so i miss u lots lots
hope that u can put ur arms around my waist and won't ever let me go.
but we noe its not going to happen.
As long as you're happy, I'm happy.
I'll always be here waiting.
waiting for u to come back(:
ily dearest<3
Loves
Su.Hai.Lah
