- Rihanna
When it felt like I had everything in this world to help me succeed,
everything crumbled in a blink.
I was proud to have you by my side at the start of a new phase in life.
But I didn't know it wouldn't last that long.
Yes I gave you a choice
and when you made that decision,
my heart broke into pieces.
I didn't expect it to come so quick.
Especially when I needed you the most.
Now I still feel the same way.
Even worse I think.
Never have I felt this lost.
To be left in a new environment,
and yet your rope have been cut loose.
I didn't know who to turn to,
who to depend on.
Forgiving comes naturally for me.
But not forgetting.
To forget is not the same as letting go of your past.
To forget means you have not learnt from your mistakes.
It isn't easy to just forget.
What more something that is such a big thing.
I need time.
And apparently, you don't want to wait.
Hopes of us getting back together is everything I can pray for.
To live our dreams together.
To go through the highs and lows of life together.
To know I've got someone by my side.
Someone who will remind me that there's more to life when I'm down.
But it's all just a dream now.
I know I should just move on and let it all go.
But how do you do that when your heart is still with him?
How do you ask for your heart when you want him to hold on to it?
I don't know if I can live through all those nights.
Lonely.
Hoping and waiting for his name to appear on the screen.
But it won't happen again I guess.
Strong...
I don't know if that word can be used to describe me anymore.
Cause I'm not me when you left and took my heart along.
Most of the time I'm angry with myself,
with how we handle this.
But I guess, there isn't any point in being angry.
It's not gonna change anyting.
Not gonna get you back.
Thank you for everything.
For all the things you've taught me.
For all the times we spent together.
For all the tears and joy we shared.
I miss you Fahmi.
Sorry for the emo post.Have been holding in for way too long.IPPT is tmr.I'm scared.But OUH WELLS!~larilarilariiiiii!and really..Ignorance is bliss!Studying Media and Law makes me feel clever.BUT!it also makes me feel like a know-it-all...ni tk leh..tu tk leh...nk buat mcm nerrrr!~pfft!~n GOSH!skrg da 9 days puase...cepatnyer...I've got no chance to iftar with anyone this year.Thanks to my schedule..but then,at HTA pn hari2 iftar together2...seated by 1840...so by that time everyone is high with exhaustion...talking nonsense and staring at the clock..bt woohoo..we're having fun aren't we???so I'll be back next wk...RunRunRun for IPPT(:Loves,Su.Hai.Lah 
